December in November

I’ve been playing this song in my sets again. Its one of the oldest songs that I still even remember how to play. I remember how to play it because I still like it after all these years. Its about my first queer love… my first love at all.

I’m in Lyon, France today. I’ve been solo touring for over five weeks now. On the one hand, its awesome. I love playing music for people - its my very favorite thing to do. On the other hand - I’m alone with my thoughts a lot. I’m an aquarius so those are often anxious and self doubting thoughts. I’m being reminded why I took a break from this job for a while. Its kind of excruciating. The driving, the new bed every night, the weird and irregular food situation, the lack of sleep, the endless work of booking and promoting… that I can do. Its laying my guts out on stage every night that is challenging… and also rewarding. The thing I most hate about this job is also the thing I most love about it. Fuck. No escape. I don’t really want to escape it. It makes me feel alive. I do want it to get easier though.

One thing that makes it all worth it and all possible, is you. Thank you for supporting my art and reminding me that it is valued. You feed my belly but also my heart. Thats incredibly cheesy, but seriously. Whenever I doubt what I’m doing, I remind myself that there is this incredible group of people supporting me and believing in me. I won’t let you down.